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Finally on LinkedIn

Those of you who know me, know that I hate Linkedin. I have, all my life, been aiming for something rather nameless, something I knew was there but I couldn’t quite pinpoint for myself. Something GREAT, MASSIVE, IMPOSSIBLE-TO-REACH even.

Today, I got an email notification from LinkedIn that I didn’t ignore like I usually do, but actually clicked through to my old profile that I haven’t updated in yonks. The reason is not something you hear every day on LinkedIn.

This morning, ascended.

As fancy as it sounds, it only really means that I am in full control of my own destiny now. Before, I had two spirit attachments that have prevented me from truly moving into the direction that I wanted to move into while trying to push me into a role I had NO INTENTION of accepting; being a mother and a respected family member.

Through the most unsuspecting, and quite usual conversations I have all the time on the spirit level, something shifted, and someone other than me cleared a very harmful, toxic soulmate connection that has been poisoning my existence since I was a teenager.

I was very well on my way to exactly where I needed to be in my early teens, but an ill-advised friendship got me off my own, authentic path, and I’ve been fighting it ever since. I also have made friends with this same spirit around the same age several times in my previous incarnations, with disastrous results.

I wanted my life, my work, and my love relationships to be in perfect harmony, or I didn’t want it at all. My stomach churns at the time wasted, but as always, there is a silver lining; I got what I wanted; to understand everything (that I was curious about).

I find it amazing how I feel like I can finally just BE. How I can go on LinkedIn and just tell people what it is that I do without needing to apologize for it. I feel my feelings without guilt; including the hate that I feel for that toxic friend, the troubles she caused me for simply having an interest in what happens to me, and I simply feel that anger and resentment, and I don’t feel like I have to apologize for that, either.

Life is going to be good from here on in, and I won’t have to struggle to rip every penny out of the pockets of reluctant-to-pay clients, but I can just… Be. Let people see what I can do, and be freaking wowed.

Find me on https://www.linkedin.com/in/riinarinkineva/


Modified on April 20, 2017

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